It felt as if things were literally slipping through my fingers. Things were just streaming away from me. I lost my sense of humor. I'm still looking for that.

This quote is describing the feeling of helplessness and discouragement. It is saying that the person felt like they had no control over their life and that all the good things they had going for them were disappearing one after another. They also lost their ability to see the humour in life and they are still on a journey to try to get it back.